Tuesday, August 18, 2015

{how to live} my unbelievable life

if you told me a year ago that i would have been this sick, I wouldn't have believed you.

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if you told me two years ago that I would give up dairy by choice, I wouldn't have believed you.

if you told me that I'd be okay with my appearance the way it is, twelve year old me definitely wouldn't have believed you.

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if you told me a year ago that I would be over my hatred of doctors and needles, I would've laughed in your face. 

if you told me three years ago that I would lose my best friend, I would've bit my lip and nodded because I saw the inevitable coming...but I just wouldn't believe it.

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if you told me last March that I would be fine and get good grades despite my illnesses, I would've burst into tears. 

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if you told me five years ago that I would be more about the Jesus in quizzing and less about the finesse and the competition, I definitely wouldn't have believed you. 

if you told me that I would have three chronic conditions by the age of 18, I would've shook my head because you had to be wrong. 

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if you told me a year ago that I would get on a plane, just for three days with my best friends doing the thing I love the most, I wouldn't believe you.

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if you told me four years ago that my best friends would end up being the girl I danced with down the hotel hallway and the boy who always seemed to be on my team, I wouldn't have believed you.

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if you told ten year old me that I would be an aunt with a niece who is beyond adorable, I wouldn't have believed you. 

if you told me when I put pencil to paper and wrote my first story that I would someday finish a novel, I wouldn't believe you. 


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if you told sixteen year old me that despite the chaos around my family, we would be okay, I would hope with all my heart you were right.

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if you told me just six months ago that everything would be on the right side of normal, I wouldn't have trusted you. 

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in the dark, it can be too hard to see the other side, the good side, because you're too afraid you'll never get out. 

I lived that.
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And I'm sure you did too. 

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7 comments:

  1. Ely, you have a gift with words. <33 You're so strong. And awesome. And I'm super duper glad we "met" and became friends.

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    1. thank you, friend of mine. Your words are more encouraging than you know. :) Love ya! <3

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  2. Absolutely lovely post. That Stiefvater quote gave me goosebumps. And what a perfect way to end it. I've been studying John so I was reading those words just the other day.

    "Thomas said to him, 'Lord we do not know where you are going. How can we know the way?' Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life.'" John 14 5-6

    With no experience of chronic illness I can't pretend to know what you've been through, but for you, more than anyone, Jesus' words must ring so true: "I am the life."

    PS Thank you so much for the follow -- that's 100! I am so thankful to all you guys! <3

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    1. wow--I was the hundredth follower?! That's so awesome! I've been meaning to follow your blog for ages (and actually, I was surprised I wasn't already following you....) so it's quite an honor to help you reach that awesome goal! Way to go! :)

      That passage has always been a favourite of mine, but I'd never looked at it the way you portrayed it. Yes, I may be sick, but Jesus is the life in me. And therefore, life goes on. :)

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  3. This post hit me like a train. An old black train of grief and spiraling sadness that is all too familiar.

    I feel like most of those quotes are about me which is kinda scary. Although I can't even begin to imagine what living with a chronic illness is like. I'm sorry. Even though I know full well that "sorry's" give little comfort.
    I definitely agree with conversations after 3am are most sincere and how we become artistic when our hearts are broken. I cam up with an idea for a book and began to write it after 3 am when I was feeling incredibly down and talking to someone who meant a lot to me but I meant little to them. Typically this is the most depressing story I have ever written or read yet it is all inspired by the people in my life. I have it unfinished hidden away at the back of my wardrobe. I don't know why I haven't shredded it yet...

    Anyhoo, sorry for that sudden spiel, I have no idea where that all came from.
    I just happened to be browsing through Emily's blog and clicked on a few links and viola! I found myself here.
    Hello ^_^

    Nice blog by the way ^_^

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    1. thanks for checking my blog out! I'm glad this post resonated with you--it just makes me realize that we're never alone; others go through similar experiences every day.

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